I ran across this quote the other day and I absolutely loooove it.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

She's the kind of girl - bad guy

She's the kind of girl who:

spread rumors
punched with words instead of fists
made her mom cry on christmas morning
could shred your self esteem with a single glance
threw beer in a girl's face
shops at Neiman Marcus
had ponies at her birthday party
would only eat organic foods
lives off of pita chips and hummus

Carnage freewrite exercise

Here is my original free write for the "shark".

Free willy orca whale aquatic life bounding diving open water in distress? or celebrating freedom to be in the wild home is everywhere water ocean go and do whatever you please. Swim and leap the turbulent currents. Your only limit is the land. Back to earth boundaries everywhere deadlines, bills, schedules work to do. Be free when you can like a shark or whale or whatever the hell this thing is. Oh shit! Did I forget paperwork for Courtney? We can't even escape our minds, ourselves. How can we be free?

And here is the freewrite with the words from Carnage replaced:

Replaced father
Open fists
My disparity
ruining, composing
hollow head
broken off?
or waving rivulets
to be in the street
center was sky
arms, leaves paused and looked
whatever you please
Tell the evening
Your only trance is his face
Back to reds
Figures everywhere
arms, fists, wands
heads to batter
Be hollow when boys fall
like a figure or beetle or face
Did I follow father for limits?
Faces looked even cinereal
Evergreen
How can horizons be followed?

I was thinking about movies where another element overpowers the plot. One movie that came to mind is "A Clockwork Orange". My deadbeat hippie ex-boyfriend made me watch this movie with him once. The whole thing was so freakin wierd that I had no clue what the heck was going on half the time. I suppose it was the visual elements that forgo the plot in this movie.

younger years

I want to go back to my younger years
when I didn't care
about anything...
I want to go back to the cops and robbers days
and play in the snow til my legs sting
But that's life man...
There are bills to pay
and things to be learned
and mommies and daddies to make proud
so we plug along
but never forget
how it felt to swing from the boughs of oaks

Mr. Dynamite

I really enjoyed the book. Even though Jarleth is a pretty disturbed guy, I really liked the abstract narration and the flow of the book. The whole book reads like a freewrite. Jarleth's thoughts just seem to spew out of his mind sometimes without any thought or reason. Its a refreshing take on a depressing tragedy, and I found many scenes and lines that were comedic, like a dark comedy. The book kind of reminded me of the movie "Running With Scissors".

The Hills

One of my favorite parts of the week in Monday night because of "The Hills" on MTV. A group of us watch it every week in our friend's room (who will remain nameless because his masculinity may be harmed haha). I love "The Hills" because a lot of the themes in the show are things we can all relate to, but with a crazy Upper Class, spoiled, Californian twist on them. All the people that watch it with us really have grown to love (and hate) some of the characters and have really become attached to the show.